most of us have goals in life -- i want to do this or i want to get this. i have them too. so, i sat down to write out the "big goals" of my life ... but i balked the moment i got down to actually writing them. i didnt want to write my goals -- writing them felt like i was committing to them in some way and that meant that i wasnt willing to just respond to life. somehow, committing to goals meant that i was going to lose the spontaneity of just living.
so i pondered what was going on ....
all to often, when i set goals, to my mind it means that i will accomplish them. that desire for accomplishing them makes me attached to the goal. the attachment in turn takes away from the spontaneity of just living.
setting goals also seems like yet another "ego enhancing" activity to me and so takes away from the plain experience of just working towards the goal ... its the eternal question of whether its all in the journey or in the destination.
so i am now asking myself ....
can i plan and hence set goals but not be attached to them ... let the course change as needed ... so i may not achieve my goals even though i set them and start out working towards them. can i do this by choosing an experience rather than a destination?
i dont think that it makes sense to set goals.. i mean maybe small immediate ones.. but then setting the huge ones.. that to me doesn't make that much sense. i think that a lot of goals that we make are based on some ideal in the future... especially if its with another person then its the whole idea of "forever".. and well, i think that its just better to live for now. not necessarily to do stupid things.. but to take risks.. and not sacrifice your present in the name of your future goals. not that u shouldn't have dreams.. those are different.. those are the amazing ideas and plans you have for yourself in your head.. and thats what keeps you going. in like 10th grade or something this was "my" quote.. i always find a quote i really like and then rite it everywhere for like a year..
"dream like u will live forever, live like you will die today"... its a little "seventeen".. but so what?
Posted by: me | April 13, 2005 at 05:16 AM